Wow! When I asked God earlier this year to stretch my faith, little did I know that He was going to continually use taking me out of my "comfort zone" to do it! At work this week, I was asked to help out with the senior adult ministry. Of course, I said I'd be glad to. Little did I know that I was about to learn to let go of my fear of performing in public!
A small group of our staff had been asked to help provide the entertainment for this monthly senior adult gathering. We thought we were going to help provide backup singing while one of our pastors led the group singalong. Well, that was partly true. We did provide singing, but they wanted us to go a step farther and add dance steps to it, too!
Well, most of my family and friends know that I'm not the most coordinated person on the planet. In fact, I'm pretty much a klutz. My mother always told me, when I was growing up, that she should have named me "Grace" because I was always having some sort of mishap due to my clumsiness. So you should have seen my shock and surprise when I found out that I was to participate in this! Overwhelmed is an understatement...I was mortified!We had about five minutes to practice 3 mini dance routines before it was time for us to "go on." I tried to smile as I watched the feet of those next to me. They didn't seem to have any problem at all and it seemed to come naturally for them. As for me, I was struggling to keep from stepping on someone else's toes. All I could think was, "I am going to look like the biggest fool ever up there. What will they think of me?"
It was time for us to begin. The music started to play and everyone spread out across the room in front of about 50-60 senior adults. The singing started and we had our que to begin..I watched very carefully the person next to me...I whispered I can't do this and she said "just smile really big...they won't be watching your feet anyway, they'll be watching your face!" I prayed she was right and smiled the biggest smile ever. All of a sudden, I found out that I was enjoying being out there. My fear was gone! I focused on the faces of those in the audience and suddenly I didn't care anymore whether my feet were doing what they were supposed to or not!
Are you willing to be a "fool" for Jesus, letting Him take you out of your comfort zone so He can use you in places you've never been used before? I wasn't, but now I am! I figure if He can take someone as uncoordinated as me and use something like that to show me that He loves me so much that He wants me to trust Him in everything, that I am willing to take the next step (no pun intended) and follow anywhere He leads me...lookout Broadway - HERE I COME!